MVM: 1st Lady- Missing You

This song Made me cry the very first day that I heard it. I instantly thought of my brother, my sister, my grandparents, and all my lost friends. I miss you! Many people don't know that depression can begin with losing a loved one! It's ok to grieve any way you need to. Its the pain YOUR feeling. YOU handle things differently, and that's ok.

1st Lady- Missing You

MVM: Enrique Iglesias- HeartAttack

Enrique Iglesias- HeartAttack

MVM: When I Look At You- Miley Cyrus

I know not very many people are big fans of Miley Cyrus. I myself am not either. This song is a beautiful song no matter who's behind it. 

Miley Cyrus- When I look At You

I am WEAK, I am STRONG, I am ME!

I wrote this on a very low day. I felt very down and alone. So when you read this keep in mind this was not written on a good day. I wanted to show every body that even though I feel as if I am better now, You'll always have down days. People struggling with depression, Don't "JUST GET BETTER". Time just makes dealing with the disease easier. It never fully goes away! Any ways- Here's my rant/epiphany. 





I'm not gorgeous. I am not smart. I do not spend hours a day on my hair and make up. I don't turn heads when I walk into a bar or club. I am not a show stopper. I am not toned or tanned. I do not have extensions or an expensive color weave. I do not get a manicure or pedicure every two weeks. I don't have perfectly white or straight teeth. I may not be "fun" to be around at all times. I have my faults. I hate myself more then the average hater at most times of the day. I make mistakes. I am not perfect. I have meltdowns just like any other girl. I'm not a talker. I over think everything. I second guess my thoughts. I don't believe I'm worthy of good. I believe I deserve the bad I get.But I am caring. I love to the deepest levels in my heart. I think about those who are struggling every single damn day. I give when I have nothing left to give. I forgive, even when people deem it to be unnecessary. When I laugh, I laugh with honesty. When I hug, I hug with true love and Friendship. I would rather kill myself inside silently then openly hurt some one. Seeing men cry is a huge weakness. Seeing mother's losing children tears me apart limb to limb. The elderly tug at my heartstrings. I'm a sensitive soul. I may not be strong in your eyes. But it's now that I'm realizing, I am strong. I have a beautiful heart and that's really all the beauty I need to accept in myself. Not a dream glimpse of the girl I can't be. I need to be the girl I can be. The girl I am. Even if I don't like her I need to learn to love her. Respect her.

Free Hugs Experiment!

I love this video! This video sends out so much love to the world it's almost ridiculous! Can you imagine how many people, who where having a horrible day, walked away with a smile, a happy tear, a glimpse of hope! I totally Am inspired to do this video! I will be doing my own free hugs experiment! :) For those whom have not seen the video here it is! Send love!

Secretly

There are so many individuals that are walking around secretly hurting right now. As I type this out another young soul dies by their own accord. Another girl is being raped, another young boy being bullied at school. Too much bad in the world, it's almost clear as day why we are all struggling depression. There used to be so much beauty, Some days I still find beauty in the world, but it's more bad then good. I want to be a change that brings light into this dark place that we all inhabit. Let me be that light in your dark world. If your feeling down and suicidal please contact me! I want to help you! I know I may not know you, but I do care. I believe every life to be precious. Even when it seems like every body else has a different opinion. You don't have to battle it secretly, open up to me! I will do my best to give the most honest answers I can. Hopefully save your life!
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MVM- The Script I'm Yours

This song is beautiful on so many different levels. 

The Script- I'm Yours